Honestly I feel like I have been in a whirlwind of crazy life events since I started high school, and every time it seems things may be looking up some other tragedy strikes. Well, this year alone, I can tell you I have faced a few things that could serve as my tribulations for the year (in my opinion). But yesterday something happened that just made me feel like giving up. I’m at a point where I’m tired of hearing motivational mantras, and those “it’ll get better” speeches are completely outdated and useless for my drive. Yesterday I can honestly say I felt that I was being stomped into the ground while I was already down. Now, that’s not to say that I’ve never wanted to give up before, because I have; however, this particular instance was just the final straw for me.
Have you ever been so let down, beat up, and overwhelmed with things coming your way that you didn’t know which way to turn? That’s exactly where I was about 24 hours ago. But then, I started thinking… If you feel that this is rock bottom, then this is the worst, right? And if this is the worst then if you keep working, pushing, and striving for your goals it can only get better. I made the decision to get some sleep and revisit my feelings today.
Well, today I went to a leadership summit on campus, and as usual, I put on my facade before I walked out of the door. Fake it until you make it, right? As the day progressed and I listened in sessions and listened to the keynote, I realized that everything that is going on is just preparing me for greatness. How can you truly appreciate finer things and a rewarding life if you have no idea what struggle looks like? What I am facing is the storm before the rainbow. What I am looking forward to and working toward is that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
I have worked so hard to be where I am today. And although I may not be exactly where I thought I would be, or may not be where others thought I would be… I am in a good place. I’m where I am supposed to be to get me where I plan to be. It was amazing to be reminded today that these small road blocks are just a part of life. While my road blocks may be more demobilizing than those of others, I know that as long as I remain motivated and determined I can and will overcome anything that comes up.
Yesterday I wanted to give up, but today I am still fighting because if rock bottom was yesterday then it can only get better from there.